Pico de Orizaba

Pico de Orizaba
Taken from Huatusco, Veracruz, the closest town to Margarita's family's ranch.

Friday, May 18, 2012

"Rape of the World; Rape of Children" Mixing Mental Illness and Environmental Activism...

Hi M.  I've made it through to the middle.  It's horrible whatever it was that was happening in this man's household when he was a child.  However...  I feel that the two actions (sexual abuse or explotation of children and the destruction of the ecosystems) are issues that do not cross or interconnect and should not be joined within one essay:  

"One of the worst aspects of both childhood sexual and ecocidal abuse is the extent to which talking about these pervasive and perverse ills are taboo. There are other similarities. Both desecrate what is good, loving, truthful, and required for continued human and natural life by dirty, ugly, vulgar, and deathly power. There is of course the penetration - the perverse, evil desire by some to place their drill in warm and wet crevasses to extract energy while destroying the energy source.

Logging primary forests is very similar to raping children both in moral terror and lasting horrific consequences - the difference is largely only one of scale. The rhythmic pounding of the chainsaw into ancient forests reminds me of being raped. The same impulses that lead us to unquestionably destroy 60 million year old ecosystems for lawn furniture are on display as children are treated like flotsam, indeed trafficked as a commodity, for momentary ejaculatory self-gratification."

There is absolutely no logic in this.  It is horribly artificially manipulative.  Sexual abuse is very private and personal.  It is part of a microcosm of the society.  It exists for the most part on an individual basis be it between the victim and the abuser or within a family.  It is from the inside further inward.  The destruction of ecosystems is part of the macrocosm of society.  It is impersonal, just as genocide and war is impersonal.  Yes, if you find yourself in Baghdad with millions of tons of bombs falling on your head, it is personal.  However the act is impersonal.  The destruction of the ecosystems affect us all.  But it is impersonal for most people since the effects are gradual (although the shock isn't gradual when you suddenly find yourself crossing clearcutting on the Olympic Peninsula), sufficiently gradual for most people to ignore the issue and say that "tomorrow..."  But back to the macrocosm.  Destruction of the ecosystems has it's base within political permissions and the desire of many people for extended economic growth.  It is based upon markets that create the illusion for many people that they have increased personal comfort, increased quality of life.  As you know, most of animal life (including humans) lives within a food chain reality of being preyed upon or being the preditor.  And "no one" within this system falls within victim or ill-doer (for lack of a better word) status...  I believe that the human problem is that humans have an "intelligence quotient" too high (a potential) that also causes them to be too aware of their fears.  They too are prey and vulnerable.  But they decided to invent the word "victim" and try and run away from that risk, be it victim to a black bear or be it victim of microscopic organisms or not so microscopic organisms in a tropical zone or victim of what humans call "natural disasters"...  In order to remove themself from risk, they remove forrests and jungles and all possible predators that scare them...  The issue must be addressed on a socio-psychological, spiritual level.  But to infantilize forrests placing them on the same plane as children... Well that is obsurd and doesn't help the issue..., not one or the other...  It's just manipulative.  And I would love to think that the ecological activists are clear thinking intelligent people who understand what the true issue is...  But, this writing just offers the others the idea that the writer is mentally ill, creating risk that they will consider those manipulated by the peice (environmental activists) mentally ill also...  

All political movements and governments use words manipulatively in their propaganda and try and change the language so that the people move in the ways they wish.  The reason why I left the environmental movement and the animal rights movement along with others is because it became clear that no one truly wanted to act honestly and most of the movements became manipulative with the same style of language and propaganda that is used by their "enemy"...  It's a viciously repetative cycle.  

You attack the issue with truth.  You explain what happens when the various ecosystems are destroyed and how it affects everyone.  You try to influence legislation to create new laws and to enforce those laws.  You try and educate people, especially the children, for connecting with the natural world, for participating within it, so that they wouldn't wish for the destruction of the ecosystems.  But you don't write sick things like 

"Earth is routinely ripped open with over-eager, hammy hands, reaching between her legs for treasures that should remain buried. "  

No, you didn't write this.  But the essay doesn't help.  

We are 7 billion people on this planet M.  When you and I were ten-years-old, we were 4 billion people.  30 years and the world population has almost doubled.  Who is creating anti-population movements?  Who is saying, "restrict yourself to just one child or think about not having children?"  No one wants that realistic and logical form of restricting basic human actions...  Can you march on the capitals of most countries and say, "limit the amount of lifestock raised for food consumption!"  How many people will enter those movements?  But not as animal rights activists... 

M., when you distract people with emotionally manipulative propaganda (although for a good cause), you make it that much more difficult for them and others to see the issue directly and to encounter logical responses and solutions...  The problem is that it seems that, due to egoism, very few people truly live for creating healthy, logical solutions and for living within the truth.  

And in the end you find the world and the human race immersed in the same problem.  But, as I said, we are 7 billion humans on this planet.  How many of those humans are ecological activists?  How many of them earn above the necessary amount for maintaining a healthy family?  Although this ultimate class of humans earning above the necessary amount... is much smaller than the class of humans below the poverty line or on the edge, you will find that they are so many more than the amount of ecological activists existent on this planet.  You and your wife (especially your wife), grew up within this privilege.  The necessities of these families and individuals for maintaining or increasing their quality of life and the necessity of those living on the brink (called "at risk") to be able to have what you and your wife had growing up or have now, makes it almost impossible that an intelligent, calm, honest and logical ecological activist movement will work...  That's not to say, "let the destruction continue". It's to say, put things into perspective my friend and try not to be manipulative and try to iron out exagerations and dishonesty within the movement...  

Just as the forrests don't "love", nor do the animals "love", they also don't participate within political social movements or clubs created for maintaining themselves and the human need for feeling important and powerful...  When the predator appears, the prey (following its "instinct" for self preservation), runs and tries to escape.  But when the prey finds itself in the jowls of the predator, the prey accepts its destiny and dies.  And continues participating within the nurturance of the ecosystem.  When we die, we too continue within the nurturance of the ecosystem.  There is no love in that. It just is...  We are omnivores.  We don't have to eat meat every day or every week or every month...  But saying "love animals, don't eat them" is besides the point.  We are intelligent animals.  Highly intelligent animals.  However, it seems that we are horribly lazy to truly use that intelligence and act healthfully upon that intelligence...  Or we can decide (lazily) to continue reproducing the same vicious cycle and watch the human population increase and watch the wars destroy a small percentage of that human population and a great percentage of the ecosystem and continue towards our destructive, unhealthy destiny.  


I don't believe it's so much passion as a troubled man's desire to release the horrible tension he has within due to an experience he was powerless to control and is almost powerless to remedy... trying to connect it to something possitive.  I imagine (from personal experience) the traumatized person who decides upon addressing directly the trauma becomes an activist within their own life, automatically causing within them an activist intensity (you call passion)...  But, I would be careful against confusion desesperation with passion.  Desesperation to feel oneself in control of their life and their health (mental health and then physical health)...  Desesperation to feel on top of something (an ecological movement).  Desesperation to feel normal and acceptable...  Imagine being sodomized as a child, especially by a familiar person who is protected by the people who should be protecting you...  It's "unfair" that human sickness (that perpetrated against the child) should be thrown upon the non-human world in the name of "love", "loving" or caring...  Who wants to consider themself abnormal?  And what a shame that humans tend to blame the "victim" (the child) for the illness created by the behavior of sick and careless adults.  But those who did not experience within their childhoods those styles of trauma and who have the clearness of mind to be able to focus better upon placing things into perspective should be able separate the illness from the unrelated issue... otherwise, not to equate destroying the various eco-systems with the rape of children.  They are two totally unrelated issues that combined confuse the true issue at hand, which is environmental activism...  

Is this letter meant to put "passion" in the environmental movement where passion didn't exist?  If so, then the environmental activists don't have enough conviction based upon real information and must manipulate people for moving with unrelated information which in the end is dishonest.  Is this letter meant for moving environmentalist into a movement against child abuse?  I highly doubt it...

The Complete text:

Raping Kids and Earth
What kind of sickos destroy children and ecosystems? Well actually, a surprising number do. Most are against both types of victimization of innocence and purity - as long as you don't talk or do anything about it when it happens.

May 13, 2012
By Dr. Glen Barry

Earth is so beautiful, so perfect in its intimate interconnectivity, as are humans in their ability to create and transcend, to pass down knowledge, love, and ecological habitat to our children. Yet we know -especially direct victims of childhood rape and ecocide - that Earth and her humanity are filled with a dark, narcissistic self- destructiveness as well.

Two of the very worst evils stalking the land are those who sexually abuse children, and those who wage ecocide upon ecosystems. In fact, they are two sides of the same coin. This is going to be a deeply revealing and challenging essay. If you don't think freely with an open mind; and are, well, dumb and insensitive, you may not want to try.

Earth and childhood innocence are two of the most profoundly truthful things ever. Yet humanity's increasingly predatory nature threatens both. The urge to penetrate and destroy the souls of old forests and young children are a grotesque perversion, illustrating the evil that exists - within depraved soulless modernity - cut off from community, nature, and knowledge of right-living.

One of the worst aspects of both childhood sexual and ecocidal abuse is the extent to which talking about these pervasive and perverse ills are taboo. There are other similarities. Both desecrate what is good, loving, truthful, and required for continued human and natural life by dirty, ugly, vulgar, and deathly power. There is of course the penetration - the perverse, evil desire by some to place their drill in warm and wet crevasses to extract energy while destroying the energy source.

Logging primary forests is very similar to raping children both in moral terror and lasting horrific consequences - the difference is largely only one of scale. The rhythmic pounding of the chainsaw into ancient forests reminds me of being raped. The same impulses that lead us to unquestionably destroy 60 million year old ecosystems for lawn furniture are on display as children are treated like flotsam, indeed trafficked as a commodity, for momentary ejaculatory self-gratification.

I was terribly sexually abused as a child, and have only recently emerged - damaged but mostly recovered - from the acts, the cover-up, and the continued demands by perpetrators and their protectors for silence. Being sodomized and forced to participate in sex acts by an Uncle were horrific enough. But even more detrimental, hurtful, and damaging to my development as a fully actualized human-being was an entire childhood growing up in an environment where my father was routinely sexually abusing a sibling, and where sexual abuse was
epidemic in the extended family.

Growing up in a home rife with sexual energy directed at children is devastating, the degree of which was only fully revealed to me as an adult. I look back and realize how these criminal acts - sexual abuse, titillating sexual contact, man boy sex, and a massive cover-up blaming the victims - change your whole way of viewing the world. I am now clear - during what was otherwise a decent upbringing - I and others around me were dramatically and permanently impacted upon by the sexual crimes and cover-ups as family roles, boundaries, and sexual morals didn't exist.  Speaking openly on such matters helps me with my mostly completed yet always tenuous recovery.

I was also born onto a dying planet, where ecocidal and wide ranging human psychosis - destroying all that is natural, good, truthful and life-affirming - is hailed as advancement and development. The personal victimization I experienced occurs daily on a local, regional and global scale as ecosystems that provide for our water, air, food and culture are brutally pillaged - along with all their bounteous life -without regard to anything but the lust for profit. As a trained ecologist, I am privy to Earth's historic rape in every tarnished ecosystem I see, as I bear witness to Gaia's and our death.

Earth is routinely ripped open with over-eager, hammy hands, reaching between her legs for treasures that should remain buried. Old forests are not meant to be logged for toilet paper, nor are gas and oil to be ripped from deep within Gaia's body to poison the air life breathes.  Humanity's long-time rape of the natural world is killing Earth and will result in all life's final demise unless the ecocidal rapists are stopped - using all means necessary.

The next frontiers in civil rights and natural law are allowing nature, animals, and ecosystems to exist without threat of ecocide, and stopping the rape of our children. Some things need to end because they are objectively wrong and against continued truthful and sacred existence.  Much of the abuse and harm we do to others is the result of abuse done to us, and everyone needs to break the cycle. Healthy children and ecosystems are needed simply for Earth and civilization - such as it is - to survive, much less continue to advance and thrive.

I am not looking for pity or making excuses, I just want it to stop - the silence, the lies, and the protecting of family reputations over justice for the abused, and the shame being redirected and falling upon the abusers. The belief that I could not, must not tell - that I was voiceless as I remained a silent victim in both regards - was deeply engrained as I and others are groomed to be sexual playthings of the powerful adults we love on a dying Earth.

Those concerned with children and ecology - whether victims yourself or not - must turn the focus back upon the perpetrators, and stop being victims of crimes that were no fault of your own. The shame belongs squarely upon the perps, and this will only happen when we talk of the evils of penetrating children and ecosystems.  Abusive destruction of childhood innocence and life-giving ecosystems must be stopped - again - using all means necessary.

I really have little patience or desire to hear from people the same banalities of "get over it", "forgive", "move on". Anyone who as a child had their trust ripped away as they were raped and sodomized by those that said they loved them knows the permanent damage it causes, and I will not be silenced. I hope forgiveness comes, but not until responsibility is taken by the guilty, and the victimization ends.

It is not all right to rape and sexually arouse children, and I'm not going away, and holding my silence to protect the perpetrators any longer. I am not going away or stopping talking about the rape of Earth and children because it may make you feel uncomfortable talking about it.

About a year ago - after years of being rebuffed, put down, estranged from, and shamed by family members for asking what they knew about my abuse - I informed my small family that I would no longer remain silent about being raped and dealing with consequences of other family members around me being raped.

No longer would I be the victim, living in quivering shamed silence, because my uncle forced me into group sex with an aunt when I was five.  Or stop trying to understand my memories of being sodomized with objects by the same uncle, and fondled and sexually aroused by just about any relative that wanted to cop a feel.

I would speak honestly of what it meant to grow up in a household where sexual abuse was routine, about how it changed all the family dynamics, led to over-compensation to get attention, and caused me other lasting developmental harm that I still struggle to overcome. And that I would continue to seek out information regarding who had done this to others and me, who knew - and were and are protecting the perpetrators - and why upon coming forth I am subjected to a whole new round of abusive victimization.

One family member in particular - my brother-in-law - feels justified in routinely threatening me if I speak publicly about having been sexually abused as a child, how it ran rampant in my family, or refuse to keep family secrets. Apparently as a victim of childhood rape, I do not own my body, my history, or my voice. Anyone thinking I will be silenced on these matters is deeply misled. Nor will I allow myself to be damaged by the victimization foisted upon me by other less grounded in the Earth and connected to the humanity of its most small, weak and hope-filled people.

The message of this essay is to call upon each of us to protect what is sacred and good in the next generation and their ecological habitat. It is these sorts of abuse - that we expect others to bear, unsupported, in silence and shame - that cause so much of Earth's ills. Childhood and ecocidal abuse must be spoken of until there is justice and resolution, until they are ended for a more just, fair, and sustainable world.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Materialism, Spirit, Eternity, Overpopulation, Human Suffering, Destruction of the Planet or Earth Cleansing itself...

I have this conflict M... and I believe it is increasing.  And the conflict is that I believe that the world's destiny and human destiny (interconnected) is towards destruction...  That said, I believe that those who are developing consciousness within this lifetime (some would call it enlightenment, spirituality, conscientiousness) must learn that their route is towards educating others in a form of exceptance and spiritual faith that we transcend this physical body, earthly body (referring to the planet) and this lifetime and that we are eternal and not truly material beings.  I believe that instead of giving us the justification that we can abuse and exploit since we are infinite or eternal, making the body and the planet disposable, it should enable us to relax and not be obsessive about obtaining all we can obtain within this lifetime...  I take responsibility for my following words and that no one planted them in my mind:

For some reason or another we must have our own personal and probably difficult experiences; some or many people with experiences much more difficult than others...  I believe that the planet as an organism must cleanse itself.  But that means that it must remove an excess of human lives...  I also believe, for the history and the lesson of the human race, many people must perform acts that harm others (considered innocent) and the planet (which is our umbilical chord, uterus and embrionic fluid)...  We all have our own personal destinies within this lifetime.  Although personal, those destinies are interconnected with those of others...  The rapist, the exploiter, the mutilator is participating "innocently" in the destiny of others or of all...  We must try and understand and try and learn from the experience and try and accept. It's difficult.  I also believe that many people were born on this planet as wheels in the machine or bricks in the wall and a select "few" were born on this planet for learning how to fly or for teaching others how to fly... how to breath and tranquility for flying from this lifetime into other dimentions and into other lifetimes...  There are "too many" "souls" on this planet... Better phrased; There are too many human bodies on this planet...  But, it is much easier to "manufacture" bodies than it is to "manufacture" souls.  So, I believe that, as the human population increases we find an increase of bodies born onto this planet lacking "souls"...  As my friend Jenny says, who is studying bhuddism... "the bhuddists within meditation sought every cell of their bodies and didn't encounter the soul or the spirit...  They concluded that we are a mind and not a spirit..."(paraphrased).  That said, the person born without a "spirit" or a "soul" is actually a person born without the potential of conscientiousness or consciousness...  But how do you determine who was born with or without?  You don't. And maybe it's not true that they are born without but born INTO a situation within which they intentionally aren't given access to the tools for developing conscientiousness, which brings us back to destiny. It's possible that the person who was born into the route of abject materialism (narcisism/hedonism) suddenly changes direction and develops consciousness.  Through that person's personal experience there is a greater opportunity for others learning intensely.  But the majority of those born within this destiny lacking conscientiousness etc. will die without evolution away from materialism into spiritualism (my belief that we are more importantly spirit than we are a physical body)...  

I truthfully believe that our work is to bring others into other dimensions away from the material/physical Earth reality.  I also believe that the Earth must cleanse itself and we must be ready for the repercussions of that cleansing, meaning that you must prepare your people to fly and accept drastic change and new situations (we don't die.  We float and we leave this body behind; the physical body is an illusion necessary for focussing within this lifework.  If you know that you continue and that you don't truly die, then maybe you don't learn within this lifetime and you just await the following "world"; hoping that it is a better life. But that's not the point.  You do the best you can here and you prepare for the continuation and you don't make this lifetime disposable, otherwise you wouldn't have learned and evolved...)

But that does not mean that we aren't participating within the destruction of the human "race" and the Earth.  But, as I keep saying, I believe the Earth must cleanse itself, meaning that we will see an increasing rate of natural "disasters".  But they aren't disasters.  They are recuperations...  If you and your people survive these events on this planet or if you fly to the following dimention or lifetime... it's all the same.  But you must be conscious and conscientious...  here or there.  It's part of your destiny and it's how you nourish others:-)

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Thoughts in Spanish "Los hombres son perros..."

Los hombres son perros y mean a su territorio, sobre sus mujers...  Los hombres son perros... ven y olfatean el territorio del otro y quieren meterse con ella...  Los hombres son perros y mean a su territorio y quieren tomar más territorio, aunque tienen sufficiente...  ¿que hacemos con está ironia que los hombres son humanos y perros a la vez?