Pico de Orizaba

Pico de Orizaba
Taken from Huatusco, Veracruz, the closest town to Margarita's family's ranch.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Letter to a fellow traveller... Imminent death or...?

The fellow traveller is a friend of a friend recommended to me because of what I wrote her about Aspirin, Insomnia, The Pineal Gland and the hormone Melatonin (not to be confused with Melanin).  The fellow traveller is a 45-year-old diabetic man, father of 2 young children with 15 stents in his coronary arteries...  "Fortunately" for him, his cardiologist did a biopsy or sampled his arterial plaques and found 50 bacteria and 30 fungi in them...  But, the question is "what was the cardiologist's response to finding those bacteria and fungi?"  In 2015, we now know of the small intestine-heart immunological connection within heart disease.  We also know that the colon can function as a preventer of heart disease when it comes to Enterolactone and Bifidobacterium, if you have healthy intestinal flora and eat enough plant fiber.  But will the cardiologists consider this perspective?

Oh, just so you know; all of my recent cardiac issues since August are related to the lack of understanding by part of the doctors of how medications interact with the body and how to prescribe them. Aspirin turns off the pineal gland that secretes Melatonin that is responsible for not only the body's clock (the circadian rhythm) but also the cycle of secretion of T4 by the Thyroid, Adrenaline by the Adrenal glands and Insulin by the Pancreas.  I was told to take Aspirin and the Beta Blocker at night. But, Aspirin causes night time awakenings and the Beta Blocker can cause arrhythmias and heart cramps (Prinzemetal Angina)... that awaken the person not long after falling asleep.  My current cardiologist's response to my desire to decrease the beta blocker to remove the arrhythmias was the reverse; "If anything, I would increase the dosage!"  The anti-hypertensive he prescribed caused migraines, fatigue and "auras".  Today I'm not taking the anti-hypertensive, am taking half the dosage of the beta blocker and taking the aspirin 4 days per week and in the morning.  I'm also taking Melatonin 3mgs 2 hours before going to sleep.  My arrhythmias have ceased.  My sleep is almost perfect, my nocturnal hypertension has decreased dramatically, I don't awaken to heart cramps or taquicardias and I almost feel normal.  Thanks DOCTORS!

Back to the letters that you may find informative for your own needs:

Fellow Traveller:  Hi there, I'm one of J's online friends. She mentioned you were doing a bunch of research around heart health. I'm doing that too and would love to chat with you.
Do you do google video hangouts or Skype?


Me:  I've never done one or the other... Since moving to Mexico 13 years ago, I "lost" my English Language voice... (basically 13 years only speaking Spanish).  J tells me that you are 45-years-old suffering from some form of heart disease.  Well, that puts you and I into a special club: the supposedly 10% of those with heart disease below the age of 70 years...  I'm 46-years-old and the issue came as an incredible shock to me 10 months ago.  I've spent the past 10 months since the heart attack battling mediocre cardiologists here in Guadalajara Mexico and contradicting them left and right with what I've found in medical-scientific literature.  Needless to say, they don't like me very much.  I'm assuming you live in the U.S. which makes you semi-fortunate being that you have access to more than two sides of medical science: the conventional, alternative and naturist approaches (all highly trained).  Here in Mexico there are only 1.5 options: the conventionally trained on the most extreme right U.S. model greatly influenced by the pharmaceutical companies that have full reign here in Mexico (what is banned by the FDA in the U.S. is not banned here); since the new Mexican cardiologists feel that they have "arrived" at the pinnacle of medical education since they believe that they are learning the best of the best medical technique since it is the U.S. model, they believe that there is nothing else they could learn; such as the connection between respiratory infections and heart disease or Vitamin D deficiency and heart disease or Helicobacter Pylori and heart disease... And they believe that the answer to everything is prescription medication, even if what they prescribe may actually be making the situation worse for their patient.  For instance, it is clear that Aspirin at night causes insomnia, which causes "inbalances" within the endocrine system and causes hypertension and other exhaustion related problems.  Aspirin taken every day also causes digestive issues.  Now, if you develop malabsorption issues caused by aspirin taken every day, you will have additional heart problems.  I take the top/newest betablocker.  But, it is clear that the betablocker causes arrhythmias for 4 hours after taking it...  But, the cardiologist believes that it may be an issue of needing to increase the dosage when I find that decreasing the dosage removes the arrhythmia...  As for the other half option here in Mexico (a type of chamanism), well, the herbal/natural remedies may be very questionable as is the "intellectual" capacity of the natural healer.  I do believe that we must understand genetics and be able to look at blood tests and the corresponding levels along with other technological anomalies, which a natural healer here wouldn't be able to do.  

Another thing that the Mexican cardiologists don't look at (probably because the tests aren't available in Mexico) and really have no interest in is chemical/heavy metal toxicity and allergies.  Along with my genetic testing done this past summer, I also had a toxicity test done.  I am almost certain that I can show the cardiologists the cause of my issue; when you understand the cause you are closer to the cure and you are also better capable of preventing future events.  But if the doctors have no interest in the cause, then they don't truly have an interest in your health.  This is the problem I've found.

Feel free to respond as you wish.  Maybe I have information that you may find interesting.

Ross

Feller Traveller:  I've been running down the internet rabbit holes looking into any old quack theory that has no downside and been adding it to the kitchen sink approach. I have diabetes which has screwed up my arteries, I'm looking at 15 stents on the angiogram  and have a surgical consult for the atrery that feeds the left ventricle, as that is apparently totally screwed. I have angina pretty bad and cant get my bpm past 120. I'm 45 with 2 young kids.

So far I have come to the conclusion that the 50 bacteria and 30 fungi found in the plaque probably is the culprit.  So I started taking a Sodium Chlorite with Citric acid concoction that is a little questionable but my intuition said I needed to take it. I have also worked on my gut bacteria with probiotics, resistant starches and fiber. Again from following intuition.
The Linus Pauling therapy with vit c seems like a good adjunct and I have been making my own lipisomal vit c. I also really like the Thorne brand turmeric for inflammation as well as all the other miracle stuff turmeric does.


I have low vitamin d and have been taking supplements for that but I will look into that closer as it seems to go hand in hand with calcium....which I am taking vit k2 to try to dissolve the calcified plaques.

I'm taking a bunch of other stuff too as I read up on things, my sister is a naturapathic doc and I get vitamins at cost. I'm going to the most alternative cardiologist in Seattle but have little faith that she will help much....its all about cholesterol and statins she says...diet and exercise too. SIGH...such a pain in the ass to find people who want to look at reality and try to cure vs treat it since the profit is in treating it while you slowly die.

Anyway, check out the Chlorine Dioxide stuff....its a bit quacky but the first dose went straight to my heart and did some stuff...I'm still taking it and it seems like it might have reversed diabetes.

I did the genetics test and chatted with Jenny about it....there is a good resource, she has been down a bunch of rabbit holes. 

If you have read any good books shoot me a list....if you want my list of supplements in a spreadsheet I'd be happy to share.

Best of luck, FT

Me:   I was going to respond in depth to your message later on in the evening.  Although it is New Years Eve...  My father died on New Years Eve (I inherited his disease) 41 years ago (he was 34-years-old and a doctor).  So, I grew up without the New Years Eve enculturation...  However, after your mentioning throwing a few good books your way, I decided to quickly write you.

The last book I read is by the British Epidemiologist Dr. David Grimes called "Vitamin D and Cholesterol; the Importance of the Sun".  It clearly isn't quack theory but clearly goes against the 60 years of faulty medical science of the Cholesterol--Heart theory.  Plus, it is incredibly informative and fascinating how he connects so many illnesses to lack of sunlight.  What does surprise me though and makes me wonder if he felt pressured to be able to publish the book by stating the miraculous healing affects of Statins regarding heart disease and cancer.  I am almost certain that "the powers that be" would have squashed his book had he both debunked the cholesterol myth and written against statins.  However, his argument for statins is that they function as immunological and D hormone precursors (not cholesterol suppressors) and that their function actually came as a surprise and has not been explained or researched since the faulty medical scientists continue (in 2009) focussing 100% on cholesterol.  Truthfully, he spends little time on Statins, although his message was strong and clear enough for the pharmaceutical companies to be happy with him.  For me, what is most interesting about Grimes' argument is his focus upon Latitude.  I had absolutely no idea that England, Ireland and Scotland were so far north of New York City/New England.  In fact, that they are almost in the Arctic circle and are at the same level as Alaska.  So, if anyone should be an expert on Vitamin D deficiency and Ultraviolet Rays, those from the British Isles and Scandinavia should be...  Not only does Grimes focus upon Heart Disease, he focuses upon Lung Cancer, Diabetes, Hepatitis, Tuberculosis, Multiple Sclerosis and Bronchial infections.  For me, "Vitamin D and Cholesterol..." is a 600 page must read. 

Another wonderful book to read for solidifying the argument against the heart-cholesterol argument is by the medical journalist Gary Taubes"Good Calories, Bad Calories: Challenging the Conventional Wisdom on Diet, Weight Control, and Disease"... You may wish to look at his 2002 New York Times Magazine article "what if its all been a big fat lie?" http://www.nytimes.com/2002/07/07/magazine/what-if-it-s-all-been-a-big-fat-lie.html.

I have a few books by Naturapathic Doctor, Michael T. Murray, who also sits on the board of regents of Bastyr University in Seattle (the first naturapathic medical college in the U.S.).  I have some problems with his very vegetarian-biased and low-fat focus.  After reading Udo Erasmus' book "Fats that Heal; Fats that Kill" (Thanks to Jenny) and Taubes "Good Calories, Bad Calories" along with so much published by Chris Kresser, I worry about the people who preach low-fat diets.  But, we should have an understanding of the different lipid options and in what form they come, such as over heating and modified etc...  Also the hour that we consume them.  There's a wonderful cancer specialist from Spain, Dr. Alberto Marti Bosch who claims that we should avoid animal protein in the evening since it causes acidity, which is the #2 "friend" of cancer (#1 is glucose).  

I cook with fresh turmeric.  But, one thing you must understand is that the active ingredient in turmeric (curcumin) doesn't work without the active ingredient in black pepper (piperin).  So, when you purchase turmeric as a supplement instead of turmeric as a cooking ingredient (which makes it much more expensive) you must check the label to see if it has piperin).  When I cook with turmeric I automatically use black pepper too.

I'm assuming that your diabetes is Mellitus II, since you can't reverse Mellitus I.

Do you know what bacteria was found in your plaques?  Grimes mentions Helicobacter Pylori, Chlaymidia, possibly candida albicans and a certain Pneumococcus.

There is a risk with taking too much vitamin C.  Actually, I've read that the effective dose of Vitamin C is 500mgs per day; anything above that is waisted...  Taking 3,000mgs can cause certain mineral imbalances in the heart and arteries, such as copper, which is necessary for heart rhythm (if I'm correct) and for arterial/endothelial flexibility.  If I'm correct, copper is necessary for creating collagen/elastin which is extraordinarily necessary for preventing hardened arteries...  

I take (along with Aspirin, Effient and Nebolovol):

Coenzyme A
Coenzyme Q10
Selenium
Zinc
Arginine
Sunflower Lecithin
Vitamin C 500mgs
Omega 3 with 1,000IUs Vitamin D
Vitamin D 50,000IUs once per week
Fermented Cod Liver Oil
Melatonin 3mgs

And at least 6 tablespoons of ground flaxseeds per day...  

I found that red meat immediately raises my bp and that chicken causes sleep problems.  I imagine that the issue with red meat is something about the type of protein.  But some people wonder if it's a sensitivity to the hormones and other chemicals.  I try avoiding all conventionally raised meat/poultry.  But, Mexico is horrible for organic produced foods.  Most of my animal protein comes from fish (Spanish Mackerel, Chilean farmed salmon and non-Chilean sea bass) and fermented leche that I prepare in my kitchen.  I also prepare my own fermented red cabbage (sauerkraut) and Kimchi...  

I run at least 19 miles per week divided into 4 runs.  My diet is low carb (no refined carbs and no wheat products), no industrial vegetable oils, very little commercial products, no bacons/hams/cold cuts...  no canned or bagged goods.  Fortunately, my passion since adolescence is international cuisine and I'm very comfortable in the kitchen.  However, the problem with removing wheat products is that I am forced to exclude most Italian, middle-eastern , (Turkish/Arabic/Persian) and central Asian cuisine along with most East Asian cuisine (since Soy Sauce is prepared with wheat flour)... I don't eat white rice and brown rice here is a bit questionable...  I'm certain I was on the verge of becoming diabetic 2 years ago...

Due to my father, I don't have a colon or a rectum (preventative surgeries).  So, I may have some significant absorption issues that I'm certain affect my heart and what vitamins and minerals enter and stay in my body.  Lacking a colon causes hydration issues and also brings up the question of probiotics such as bifidobacterium.

Speaking of bifidobacterium:  Something that you MUST check into:  Enterolectones.  I don't know if Grimes mentioned it.  But it was found that those with the highest levels of enterolectones had the lowest level of cardiovascular disease and cancer.  Enterolectones are produced by bifidobacteria in the colon they produce from digesting plant lignans.  The #1 plant lignan precursor for enterolactone is Flaxseed.  

I'm certain that there is a lot more information I can share with you as my head clears.  However, at them moment I must get ready for my run.

Living in Seattle makes it incredibly necessary that you find a way to raise your vitamin D.  The best form is from the sun.  But, that's the problem of Seattle before and after July...  I dreamed of moving to Seattle.  But, when I was about to move to the Northwest, I suddenly took a turn to the extreme south, met my wife in my 3rd week in Mexico and I imagine I saved a few years of my life.  In late December I can get a tan running without a shirt for an hour here in Guadalajara.  I'm certain that if I had stayed in NYC, I wouldn't have lived to see my 40th birthday.

Keep in touch.

Me again 8 hours later:  Now that your cardiologist knows that you have the bacteria and fungus in your arteries did they put you on antibiotics to remove the problem of the bacteria and anything else that would remove the problem of the fungus?  Did they say anything about the relationship of the "two" in your plaques?  After reading the Grimes book, I would believe that your heart disease issue is an issue of bacteria and fungus and removing it would bring you healing...  

When my interventionist cardiologist did the angiogram/angioplasty, he didn't take samples of the plaque contents.  10 months later, I have a thousand times better understanding of heart disease and stent proceedures etc than I had when we saw the guy two days after the small heart attack... caused by what?  Looks like some sort of an allergic reaction.  But I also had some sort of a gum infection in the back of my mouth...  We had returned from 7 days on the coast/beach just north of Puerto Vallarta...  Strange time to have a heart attack; 12 hours after returning to the city 1,600 meters (5,200 feet) above sea level.  Two times when I mentioned the heart attack the day after returning from the Puerto Vallarta region friends said, "that's strange! Friends of mine and I went to the same place that same weekend and one of my friends also had a heart attack..." or "the day after returning to Guadalajara from Puerto Vallarta, the friend who was with me had a heart attack!"  In August my hair toxicity results came back with semi-high levels of mercury, lead, aluminum and uranium.  The river that passes next to Guadalajara and through its industrial zone and dumps into the Pacific Ocean just north of the highly touristic zone of Puerta Vallarta is considered the 3rd most contaminated river in Mexico...  Greenpeace and other environmental organizations have investigated and reported heavily on this Santiago River...  But, when I mention this to the doctors, they say, "we've never heard anything about this!"  My level of mercury toxicity puts me at a 30% higher risk for myocardial infarction...  

David Grimes mentions diabetes and a relationship with vitamin D levels.  I also believe he connects it with microbial infections although it could be that he was focussing more on Mellitus I.  If I'm correct, like cancer cells, bacteria also feeds greatly on glucose. For this reason, diabetics and "pre"diabetics tend towards developing infections frequently.  But, Grimes would say that Vitamin D deficiency leads to immunological deficiency which, in turn, leads to microbial overgrowth, regardless of glucose levels.  Granted, the glucose levels don't help.  However, maybe what truly comes first is an issue of lack of Vitamin D.  

Another thing: I've read repeatedly that the issue of Diabetes may be the same as the issue of Magnesium deficiency at the tissue level (not serum Magnesium).  Unfortunately, we can't test tissue content of magnesium here in Mexico.  But, you can have those tests done in the U.S.  You mentioned calcium going hand-in-hand with vitamin D.  If you read indepth about Magnesium you'll find that the three make a very interesting triad.  Magnesium and Calcium balance each other for muscle reactivity.  Magnesium relaxes the muscle while Calcium tenses it... So, if you have too much calcium in your heart, you will have high bp and maybe experience heart cramps.  Magnesium is a natural muscle relaxant and should lower blood pressure.  Three signs that you have a magnesium deficiency:  1) muscle ticks; 2) muscle cramps in the calve or the foot especially when you are asleep; 3) very dry mouth/unsatisfyable thirst (typical of diabetes).  

I take the Arginine for angina.  Breathing exercises help some.  When you hold your breath or you let the air out very slowly during the deep breathing exercises you are causing carbon dioxide to be maintained longer in the blood stream which, in effect, causes the production or release of more nitric oxide (the same thing prescribed for angina).  Since I worry greatly about the correctness of the information I share, I decided to look for some articles on the subject, although I didn't find what I had read a few months back.  This one is very interesting about the Buteyko Breathing Method:  http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2013/11/24/buteyko-breathing-method.aspx.  I noticed that Mercola mentioned that adequate levels of carbon dioxide in the body functions as an antibiotic.  Thinking about how we breath or what may cause us to breath poorly makes me think about childhood trauma (my father died suddenly when I was 4.5-years-old and the family entered into a horrible chaos.  I was diagnosed with his disease--Familial Adenamatous Polyposis--at the age of 12 and had my first preventative surgery--colectomy--at the age of 13.  Other things happened during my childhood.  But I will spare you.)  I mention this because a lot of things happen in the private lives of children that those children may bury in the attempt towards being "normal" and getting along in the world.  However, the stress from the buried events may resurface in how we relate to others or situations or affect how we breath especially in certain sitautions... How we breath may affect how our arteries function.  Mental stress can also cause acute inflamatory responses... For instance, why would my bp rise 30 points in a matter of seconds and then return to normal a few minutes later?  It couldn't be an issue of diet... cholesterol... saturated fats... not even the issue of an alergic reaction.  Hypertension treated with anti-hypertensives canNOT be the issue of sudden changes in the arterial walls.  It must be something else and be treated likewise... If it is a question of momentary stress or breathing changes, we must address that.  When I enter the cardiologists' offices, my bp automatically rises.  Why? Because I know we will be in conflict.  I hire them to listen to my medical history, symptoms, concerns, ideas and use their medical "expertise" to bring me to a better situation.  But, what I find is that they don't want to listen or think ("out of the box") and look at the situation as a medical-scientific puzzle needing solving.  I don't want them to take my pressure without looking at my blood pressure log that also mentions what I ate, how I slept, what happened during the day etc.  I don't want them to prescribe me 5 medications without truly knowing my blood levels or my physiological condition.  Should you prescribe a diarrhetic to a person without a colon?  Should you prescribe an anti-hypertensive that removes sodium from the body to a person with borderline-low or low sodium levels?  I have low testosterone levels.  Another thing you may wish for considering:  Testosterone shuts off the FMO3 gene that is responsible for the production of TMAO.  High levels of TMAO in the blood stream causes cholesterol stickiness.  So, if your testosterone levels are low, then it is probable that your TMAO levels are high.  This is a bit complex since it is believed that intestinal bacteria (especially the bacterial overgrowth called SIBO) produce TMAO after digesting animal protein.  So, what relationship would your or my gene and hormone have to do with TMAO produced by bacteria?  

While I'm still side tracked on this topic of non-cardiac issues that cause cardiac issues that maybe the cardiologists have no interest in considering:  For two years of almost monthly blood tests, the only aspect of my blood test results that does not improve with changes in diet and activities (such as exercise, relationships, sleep and work) is the Immunoglobin M (IgM) deficiency.  A few months ago I decided to do a search on IgM deficiency and cardiovascular disease and I came up with something very interesting:  IgM not only is responsible for preparing anti-bodies to attack foreign invaders, but it is responsible for removing from our arteries oxidized LDL cholesterol and apoptosed cells (cells that commited suicide when they find themselves mutated, poorly divided or cancerous)...  In Mexico there aren't tests for oxidized LDL.  But, if we know that the biggest risk of cardiovascular disease is not LDL cholesterol or total cholesterol but oxidized LDL cholesterol...  And the issue of plaques and blockages is that of not only dislodged blood clots but also any other "object" that can cause a "log jam", then my cardiologists should be worried that my IgM is not doing its job in removing oxidized LDL cholesterol and dead cells from my body.  This has nothing to do with what I eat.  Nor does it have to do with what they prescribe me.  Every day that they "control" my blood pressure and my blood thickness and platelet stickiness, while ignoring my IgM levels, my arteries are becoming increasingly filled with apoptosed cells and oxidized LDL cholesterol...  The next heart attack will occur because of an immunological issue, because they have no true interest in solving the problem.

But back to where I was headed:  It's easy to look at structural, bio-physiological and dietary issues.  But, what if the base of the problem is a series of difficult childhood experiences?  A few days after having the two stents placed in my heart I discovered this very interesting study:  http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4010612/ on childhood misfortune and Acute Myocardial Infarction.  Months later I stumbled across Dr. Sinatra's book "Heart Break and Heart Disease".  While he has gotten on my nerves over the past few months with all of the supplement sales his organization sends my email which makes him seem more a door-to-door salesman than a thoughtful cardiologist, I appreciate what he says in his book about how many people with unresolved interpersonal conflicts caused by childhood traumas die young of sudden heart attacks or not so sudden, especially those who have none of the markers that warn of heart disease or an impending heart attack...  

I'm going to leave you with this.  I'm certain that it is much more than you expected.  However, I think it is incredibly important that you understand that there are so many ways of looking at your experience... Maybe somethings I mentioned will strike a chord with you.  Maybe you will look at your exams differently.  Maybe you will see something in them that you hadn't seen before.  The idea is to find someone who is willing to consider what you see or know to be outside the traditional paradymn that may truly help reverse the negative process.  The Russian who created the Buteyko breathing technique was about to die from hypertension in his mid to late 20s.  He had bp readings of 220/110.  He died at the age of 80.  But, he didn't have stents in his heart arteries...  So it wasn't imperative that he find a cardiologist who truly cared about his situation and outcome.  The moment you are diagnosed with heart disease you become a statistic.  What do the statistics say about you?  What do your doctors believe about you as that statistic?  What are the probabilities?  I am certain that my cardiologist say, "we placed the stents in your heart to give you a few years free of a massive heart attack.  Isn't that enough for you?  What do you want?"  

Ironically, stents place us at greater risk of sudden blockage within 5 years...  It is almost guarranteed that my two stents, especially the medicated stent, will become blocked before the non-stented artery becomes blocked with a new plaque.  I learned this in the week after having accepted the proceedure...  Before having the stents placed, I never noticed experiencing angina.  Now I experience angina.  Before taking medication for preventing a future heart attack or heart failure, I never knew arrhythmia... Today it is a daily issue (not taquicardia but palpitations)...  It's not the doctors' faults.  They are doing what they are trained to do.  And, it seems that they were trained to not think scientifically.  

If your heart disease is microbial, how do you cure yourself?  Seems very basic, doesn't it?  If mine is immunologic, digestive and possibly endocrine (caused by childhood trauma), then I guess we have a pretty good idea how to address the process of finding a cure.  But, if the doctors don't want to understand this perspective...?

It doesn't matter if you have two young children or if I have a loving wife... It doesn't matter what is our economic situation/limitations.  This is not a Hollywood movie...  

Ross

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Me against all sides of the medical "community"?

...whit's end decisions?  Since we can't know if we will find someone in the traditional medical community willing to address the issue of low testosterone and deficiency of Immunoglobin M (IgM) and cardiovascular disease, we decided to continue being as proactive as possible and giving our alternative nutritionist the green light on intravenous Chelation Therapy for removing arterial plaques and certain heavy metals...  

At the moment, it seems that no matter what I do, diet 90% vegetarian (animal protein limited to natural yogurt, fish and eggs), fats limited to olive oil, coconut oil, avocados, and what is in the natural yogurt, flax seeds and Pacific Mackerel), daily exercise of 3+ miles running or rowing (30-38 minutes depending upon the activity), supplementing and drinking certain "teas" or extractions... my blood pressure rises and doesn't fall to the levels as before and the heart palpitations appear at any given time, along with certain aches or pains from the upper abdomin to the chest, shoulder, throat, teeth and head...  


When considering visits with traditional doctors, I encounter myself immersed in heavy concern.  The problem is that I don't want to butt heads with these people and their need to practice exclusively "pharmaceutical" medicine...  I'd prefer they practice medical science and look at my lab results and the literature connecting low testosterone levels and IgM deficiency to plaque build-up. Although my stance is uniquely related to my need to truly and adequately address my personal health situation (to find a cure; to save my life; to prevent unneeded suffering--unnecessary destructive side effects), they see me as telling them that they don't know how "to do their jobs" or that I believe I know more about cardiology or medicine than do they... as you'll see with the nutritionist's response...


Truthfully, there is no less of a reason to perform EDTA chelation therapy than there is to do an angioplasty/stent proceedure...  The issues existing in my body treated by EDTA are clearly diagnosed.  However, upon reading about the proceedure, I found myself with certain concerns and I sent the nutritionist a small blurb from the University of Maryland Medical Center:



For heavy metal toxicity: EDTA chelation therapy is often given intravenously with calcium, magnesium, and vitamins B and C over a period of 1 to 3 hours. The recommended adult dosage varies depending on the size of the person and the amount of lead or other metal in the body. The amount used would be determined in a hospital setting.

Precautions

The most common side effect is a burning sensation at the site of the injection. In addition, some people may have an allergic reaction to EDTA. Other serious side effects that have been reported include low blood sugar, diminished calcium levels, headache, nausea, dangerously low blood pressure, kidney failure, organ damage, irregular heartbeat, seizures, or even death.
According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), there have been deaths associated with hypocalcemia (low levels of calcium) from intravenous chelation therapy.
A qualified health care provider will monitor blood pressure, blood glucose, cholesterol, organ function, and other vital statistics during treatment with EDTA. EDTA may lower levels of nutrients such as calcium, zinc, and potassium. Your provider will perform blood tests to monitor vitamin and mineral levels before, during, and after EDTA chelation therapy. Your doctor may recommend supplemental vitamins and minerals, either orally or intravenously.

I wasn't surprised by the nutrionist's response:  

hi
you send me this information as If I did not know what I am doing? is this your point? I am ACAM certified and never ever have had any incidents.

If there is so much distrust, please do not come

...and responded to her calmly:

I thought you would respond so... It's more a question of fear and heavy nervousness these days.  

The interventionist cardiologist was highly certified and I'm certain he did the angioplasty/stent proceedure impecably...  However, I almost died on his table from an allergic reaction to the resonance ink...  I don't know what they injected me after I had lost consciousness with the heart rate over 200.  However, when I came to, I was blind for at least an hour...  Nothing is written on the paperwork what happened and what they gave me to stop the reaction...  All I know is that the cardiologist said that this had NEVER occurred in his experience as an interventionist cardiologist and that someone just informed him that the risk of an allergic reaction to the resonance ink is 10%.

Maybe it is best for you to not risk having a very bad experience that has never occurred... I've wondered what would happen if I had a reaction in the middle of the proceedure...  I find the University of Maryland Medical Center very liberal in their medical/scientific perspective... When everyone else in their world writes against spirulina and chlorella, they write in favor.  They're the only ones who I've read express the belief that people with lymphoma should avoid all sugar, especially bread, meaning that they see a connection between celiac and lymphoma, although no one has qualified that possible connection.  I didn't share with you their belief of the effectiveness of EDTA for cardiovascular disease... since I believe that at this moment most health care is a crap-shoot, much like alchemy--sorcery...  

I won't be able to look into my arteries to see if the EDTA removed the plaques...  just as I can't look into the stents to see if they are half full or about to become blocked and about to kill me... Yes, you can check with an angiogram.  But, that means spending at least $50,000 pesos and injecting resonance ink.  I don't know if you can imagine how I feel about that day when I should have another angiogram...  A form of Russian Roulette, but with more odds against me...  

Maybe you can understand my position enough to not allow your ego to dictate your behaviors...  ;-)

It's more a question of feeling her ego stepped upon and bruised.  But the truth is that she is NOT asking me for laboratory tests before beginning the EDTA proceedure... She will NOT know how are my potassium, magnesium and calcium levels before Friday.  So, it is possible that the therapy will drop my electrolyte levels too low.  And as you know, heart rhythm has all to do with Calcium, Potasium, Sodium, Chloride and Magnesium levels...  PLUS, like what is written about resonance ink and angiograms, that the doctors must first ask their patient if they have a tendency towards allergies no matter what... in order to be prepared for the possible alergic reaction event, the nutriologist should be equally prepared, since that's what the UMMC says;  risk of allergic reaction to EDTA.  

The thing is that the nutritionist is not working in a hospital.  So, if something goes wrong...?  Margarita was waiting on the other side of the door (in small waiting room) of where the angiogram was being performed and says that suddenly the cardiologist left the proceedure room running and returned a few minutes later with a woman (who must be the specialist in allergic reactions in the operating room).  

Who knows?  Maybe I am just protecting myself and she is doing me a favor while protecting herself from something exploding in her face...  

Truthfully, reading the UMMC page made me a bit anxious last night; enough so to raise my bp and cause insomnia...  

I was going to say back to the drawing board.  But that's not true.  We just find ourselves exactly where we always were...  The EDTA chelation therapy is just one possibility...  Maybe there aren't really any adequate solutions and we've just gotta accept what is evolving inside my body.

Who knows?


Saturday, November 14, 2015

On revisiting past events or regurgitating difficult histories...

While showering after terminating Amy Tan's most recent novel "The Valley of Amazement" (read in Spanish) I had this sense that I had dreamed something connected with my childhood last night...  The feeling was surprising, since I hadn't awakened thinking about the dream and had passed 5 hours awake without thinking about what I may have dreamed last night...

It turns out that I was "revisited" by my first childhood bully (outside of my household) who began the ball rolling of my ostracizement, alienation and anti-Semitism in the second grade.  Of all the children who picked on me in elementary school and middle school Tommy Murray frightened me the most.  And when I think of the stereotyped faces of Nazis, Russian or Polish anti-Semites I imagine a face like his... Although, truthfully, his face was that of Scotts-Irish decent with the red hair and pinkish freckled face...  

In the dream we were adults in an adult world somewhere between Mexico and New Jersey... Somehow I had stumbled across Tommy and his henchmen (all bullies are surrounded by henchmen) in public space and it was announced that I must fight him later on in the day causing a dilemma I had experienced with another bully in 8th grade, certainly described in this blog.  You may ask, "why dilemma?"

The children picked on in school or on the play ground or the bus stop etc, don't seek out the bullies for creating conflict.  In as much as the bully generates hate in the picked-upon kid, and that child may have fantasies of being able to KO the bully, the picked-upon would prefer avoiding potential contact and attention by the bully.  Plus, bullies generally select children who are already suffering something or another, showing a certain amount of insecurity in their stance...  

In 8th grade, when Mike Szmanski gave me a time and place for fighting him after school, although I hadn't done anything that required a "duel" between the two of us, I found myself in a dilemma... The dilemma of fleeing or fighting...  But, truthfully, I didn't want to fight...  

Regarding Tommy Murray and comparing him with Mike Szmanski at the time, I know that Mike wouldn't have fought Tommy because Mike wasn't truly aggressive... He was one of those semi-popular kids who wanted more attention.  He was just a semi-athletic cream puff... He was full of hot air.  Tommy on the other hand was clearly dangerous...  and he had developed the reputation of being a fearless fighter...  I wasn't a fighter... In fact, at the time I was just trying to "fight back" against my mother and my sisters and the small bullies my size...  

In the dream I found myself in my Nissan pick-up in a parking lot soon to fill up with "neighborhood folk" appearing for a public event I believe was a rock concert.  Unlike Tommy, I had no henchmen surrounding me, encouraging me, supporting whatever move I made.  Part of me said that I must fight him and hopefully it wouldn't turn out so bad, although I knew what those chances were... Not fighting him wouldn't resolve the problem because it would only fuel the ostracizement and they would return repeatedly until he had the chance to plaster me...  It's better to get the inevitable over with...  and not prolong it... I didn't understand that in childhood and tended to procrastinate and make things linger on and on...  In the dream there was a certain sense of relief upon thinking about just getting it over with, although the eventual beating immediately slipped into my mind...  

The strange thing is that at the moment I was supposed leave the pick-up to meet with Tommy and his group, I noticed that cars had parked so close to my pick-up that I couldn't open the doors enough to leave, nor through the windows...  

My immediate destiny was determined for me... It wasn't my decision...  But, it was inevitable...  There was nothing I could do for the moment.

Truthfully, the story doesn't interest me in as much as the placement of the dream:  I'm 46-years-old, so far away from that reality, laying asleep next to my wife Margarita who hasn't had the fortune of being able visit the places of my youth to get a little bit of a sense of where I came from...  

Why have such intense, vivid and difficult dreams about things you would say have nothing to do with the present... That aren't my current interests.  I don't think about Tommy Murray frequently...  But, it is clear that he had a certain important role in part of my childhood development.  And because of that, he appeared in the dream as he did... the only form in which I knew him... so long ago.  

One of the diagnostic criteria of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is recurrent nightmares... or flashbacks...  Last night's dream was a flashback...  What role does it serve?  In my current health situation...

At the moment I don't have the "luxury" of spending time on the far past and those difficulties.  Truthfully, the difficulties that have arisen since March render all past traumas virtually obsolete, with the exception of those events' possible contribution to the lesioning of my coronary arteries....  But aside from that, I don't believe I have space, time or energy untangling certain knots created in my childhood, adolescence and early adulthood.  There isn't anything of the past to "resolve"...  There aren't bye-gones to let be bye-gones...  Time has been cut short.  All that's truly important is how I feel today and what comes tomorrow... short-term planning, if I have that luxury.

Yesterday José "Montaña" said to me, "don't worry.  You'll find that you still have many years left of life and will see your 70s..."  I responded, "José, you know I don't appreciate trite, insignificant statements... It would be different if I knew that person was psychic and they could see into my future.  But, you weren't making that statement based upon something you truly sensed..."  He didn't contradict me...  And I said, "I'm not complaining or whining.  It's just something I know.  My body was created with a self-destruct button or programmed premature death...  It's something I must try and accept."

How much does it have to do with past experience? I don't know.  Maybe the time bomb would have exploded regardless of what occurred in my childhood and adolescence; what was done to me and what I did to myself..."  We can't know this stuff.  I believe the impetus to fill one's life with dense quality and production increases the velocity towards death, as I believe I see in my father's and my uncle Henry's stories.  Although my Uncle Henry outlived my father 22 years...  But, I do believe that those who don't fill their days with productivity and learning, thinking and developing themselves or their families or careers or business etc, who spend their time just watching the leaves fall from the trees or engage in frivolous activities, live longer lives...   The pressure to use every possible minute of the waking hours constructively/productively brings us closer to our deaths, although we believe that maybe we are more satisfied with our lives...  

I believe that I wasted a lot of time in childhood into adulthood... Who knows?  Maybe that's part of what allowed me to live to the age of 46...  In as much as I may feel regret of not having accomplished more in my life or accomplished something more important, such as having become a doctor, I now realize that it really doesn't matter, because I would have brought my death that much earlier...  Afterall, it's programmed in...  

What can we say about the bullying in school and at home?  The abuse by my uncle or my mother?  The death of my father... the inheritance of his illness or illnesses...  Maybe they were just necessary distractions or other spiritual lessons...  I don't know if it really matters...  I guess it does in some form... at least for those studying the outcomes of PTSD, especially for those connecting childhood trauma with adulthood heart disease...

How many times in childhood did I have my heart broken?  The broken heart is both symbolic and metaphorical.  But, those medical anthropologists studying PTSD and how it affects the body physiologically may see that it is much more literal than symbolic and metaphorical...  Truthfully it doesn't really matter if my heart was broken when my father died or when my mother became as she did or when the family neglected my small child fears and needs within the situation and never wanted to understand my side of the horrible experience...  Truthfully, it doesn't matter because no understanding of the situation will change the damage it produced on my heart...  No one will return me to the reality I was living upon returning from Sayulita last March 11th; what Margarita and I were talking about; the hope and the planning...  Little did I know that it was too late...  

How many times in childhood did you find yourself riding your bike and then without any warning you feel a thumping of the back tire because a bubble had appeared suddenly.  And before you know it, the bubble suddenly pops and you've gotta walk your bike miles back home to fix the flat...?  Did you know that the tube inside the tire had a defect or was worn?  Absolutely not!

I guess that's what I discovered between March 12th and March 14th...  I couldn't believe it!  I didn't want to believe it...

Now tell me:  What experience of bullying or child abuse/neglect/alienation/isolation is more important than this?  Tommy Murray?  Chris Love and Sheri or Craig and Sheri or Todd Golub and Tommy Murray or Mike Szmanski or all of those kids in summer camp or the other kids who ostracized me in elementary, middle and part of high school?  My uncle Stan...  A lot of histories... But, nothing is as traumatic and destructive as what truly destroys hope for the future and the present...  

Can you imagine walking around believing that your motor is about to blow?  If it were the brain, that would be a different story because its dysfunction would cause you to lose sense of reality, possibly relieving you from suffering, like with Alzheimers Disease...  

The palpitions appeared while working in San Luis Potosi.  And they got worse as the fair progressed.  Fortunately for me, the park within which I ran 3+ miles was a 10 minutes drive from where we lived and the fair and was in the middle of my shopping route... I didn't lose time in order to go out of my way for running...  It didn't cause me stress.  And when we closed the coffee bar at night, we walked relaxingly home to bed...  However, for some reason or another the palpitations began upon laying down to sleep.  And they increased in intensity... and caused problems falling asleep... And then I found them starting up again in the mornings upon awakening...  

So I'd go to the wonderful parque Tangamanga where I've run every August for 3 summers now and I would begin the run with a mantra:  I'd rather die running than die sleeping  It's true... It's about feeling that you are in "control" or proactive until the end...  Exercise is the only thing that gives me "a piece of mind"...  

When things became so much worse this past October during he fair of Guadalajara and the palpitations were begun or caused by the late night drive home from the fair, I found that the only way I could fall asleep in the wee hours of the night was if I did between 60 and 70 fast push-ups...  You would think that that is a bit risk considering the pressure the push-ups would place on my heart.  But I believe it is better to die of a heart attack doing something that makes you healthier in other ways and understanding that you did all you could... than to die of a heart attack feeling vulnerable and scared, relinquishing all your "power" to the problem...  

In childhood I didn't fight the bullies and the other kids... I didn't fight back.  I didn't know how to defend myself... This time around, although I may not find the solution/answers, there isn't one moment that I'm willing to procastinate encountering an adequate solution for improving the situation.  I refuse to be defenseless, allowing others to determine my destiny...  Yes, it's possible that two trucks parked too close to the doors of my pick-up all my life or ever since we returned from Sayulita... And my hands are tired... However, I will still consider kicking out the windows and sliding between the two vehiculos, even if that means I will fall face first into a mud puddle below...  

Fighting back feels much better than helplessly awaiting the other person's next move, the return of the bully and his henchmen...  

If I die running 3.5 miles today or on the rowing machine in our bed room tonight... I will not die a loser.

However, I do believe that we will have lost something very important... And I greatly worry about Margarita and her loss.  That's what worries and confounds me most these days... about preventing that loss for her... I lost my hope and wonderful expectations of 10 months ago...  I can't change that.  But, I'm battling the best I can so that she doesn't have to experience that loss so soon.  

Why did I dream with Tom Murray while sleeping alongside Margarita in our wonderful bed here in Guadalajara, Jalisco Mexico... especially if it has so little to do with our life here and our relationship?

Or is it that I'm missing a certain point?  Maybe its an important message to continue fighting for what is most important to me...  Something I hadn't done during childhood and adolescence...  I guess I didn't know what I would have been fighting for...

Ross  


Thursday, November 12, 2015

Hollywood Medical Dramas, success stories and pop culture mind...

...something constantly evolutioning within my mind... Doctors and their responsibilities... to me...  But the truth is that they're humans living with responsibilities to themselves and to their families...  Now what does this have to do with me?  Always re-calibrating... putting things into perspective...  

Truthfully, what were the doctors' responsibilities when we were diagnosed with Familiar Adenomatous Polyposis?  What were their responsibilities when my father was dying of liver cancer caused by FAP?  And what were their responsibilities when his mother (my paternal grandmother) died from what was not at the time understood as FAP caused illness?  

What the doctors don't understand or have no possibility of knowing is not their encumbrance...  If you didn't teach me the answer to question #5 on whatever exam, should I have known the answer?  

So, here I am with a lot of questions and doubts... And the incredible notion that something else is occurring within my body that no one is taking into account when they diagnose me and suggest treatments...  For 3 years now I'm beating my brain for asking myself the correct questions, questions more apt for encountering responses that come closer to the truth within my body.  

Without adequate questioning, without random miracles falling from the sky, we can't respond adequately to difficult situations.  

We're about to enter the process of third opinions of medical "experts" here in Guadalajara.  But, before entering their consultation rooms, I must have all the data infront of me, along with the themes they typically do not consider.  For instance while perusing the laboratory results of 3 years, I noticed that the year before removing all wheat products from my diet, I was repeatedly shown to be experiencing Basophilia (high Bosaphile levels)...  Basophiles are white blood cells that respond to allergic reactions...  Allergy to mold spores... allergy to pollen... Allergy to cats and dogs... allergy to peanuts...  We've lived in a heavy mold spore situation for 4 years now due to heavy water damage to the ceiling of our house to which the "landlord" responded inadequately and with which we repaired the best we could over the past few years... Hence, I've had respiratory issues on and off over the past 4 years... some very serious accompanied with hives and swelling...  That said, the basophilia went away with the removal of wheat... It didn't go away with the removal of mold spores because the mold spores are still here as shown with my most recent bout of respiratory problems in October--November...  But, the basophiles returned to normal with the removal of wheat.  So, does this mean that I'm allergic to wheat?  I wouldn't know.  I haven't been tested for wheat allergies...  

This is important.  With the removal of wheat, I dropped over 30 pounds... of inflammation...  My pouchitis (a type of Irritable Bowel Syndrome) went away...  But what doctors would have suggested removing wheat for treating Basophilia?  What J-Pouch experts are talking about wheat as a cause of pouchitis?  What is pouchitis?  The equivalent of colitis...  meaning that it can cause horrible bowel issues such as ulcers, obstructions, varicose veins and cancer... leading to more preventative surgeries.  But, before the surgeries the "patient" lives in misery...  And what if the "patient" doesn't have the economy for more surgeries?  And what if the "patient" doesn't live where j-pouch specialists exist?  If a tree falls in the woods and you didn't see it fall...  Did it fall?  Does it matter who experiences what if they aren't who you truly care about? or if they didn't appear on the big screen like the boy in the bubble or Lorenzo?  Would we care about the probability of success of Will Smith's character in "Pursuit of Happiness" if we hadn't seen the story within a Hollywood movie?

The problem is that I grew up within the "American" television/Hollywood movie popular culture.  So, it seems that my expectations of doctors and life is based upon a Hollywood fantasy medical success drama.  I expect them to become intrigued by the information/data and ideas I share with them... They should see a wonderfully interesting and satisfying medical challenge infront of them...  But, what I think they truly see is a headache...  They should see a challenging medical/scientific puzzle with a very great possibility of solving...  The other day Margarita mentioned that what I've stumbled across over the past few days or so reminds her of Dr. House episodes...  What would it take for Mexican intellectual youth planning on studying medicine to be truly inspired or influenced by the medical/scientific perspectives of Dr. House?  Who inspired scientists and doctors to pursue responses to difficult medical situations?  Were they only pursuing fame and fortune?  all of them?

So, putting everything into perspective for me has much to do with trying to understand why people are doctors and what is their true pursuit, what that has to do with my own personal situation (what is the probability of truly resolve my own personal medical issues), and truly what is my existential reality...  

If a tree falls in the woods...  If the patient isn't related to someone who is wealthy, popular or important...  How many people are we on this planet?  How many of us have the same issues or worse issues...?  How many suffer worse issues of social justice etc?  How many are more "deserving" of humanitarian aid and who will not receive anything?

Humanitarianism doesn't have to refer to "Live Aid" or "Wave Aid" (responding to the various tsunamis)...  We all can be humanitarians... at times... and decide to help someone momentarilly (like helping an elderly woman cross a busy intersection...) 

The question is what is the possibility of a doctor having the time and focus for listening to me and understanding what I've placed infront of them and decide that they "should" assist me in my personal health "project"... But, that brings up the question of what are their own personal responsibilities to themselves?  

It's frustrating... because the information is very clear... and it is all found within the scientific liturature...

The problem is that endocrinologists, cardiologists and gastroenterologists see Inmunoglobin M and Basophiles as being outside their focus and related to allergenists and immunology specialists...  So, those data are ignored...  

The problem is that the wonderful project created between Amherst College, Smith College, Mount Holyoke College and the University of Massachusetts/Amherst called Hampshire College in that they believed in the 60s that interdisciplinary studies was a more affective way of addressing social, political, technological and scientific problems for one reason or another was not grasped by the rest of the intellectual/academic/scientific and innovative "world community"...  Although I understand what it is I'm doing and the connections at which I'm looking, that doesn't mean the doctors can understand interdisciplinary focussing and looking at things from "outside the box"...  

You have no idea just how exhausting this battle and project is...  Granted, you also may not understand just how satisfying are the discoveries and connections I've made.  And, that's why I've been writing about this...  Sometimes I think that maybe it isn't the outcome that matters as much as knowing that I've been on the right track for almost 3 years now... although the doctors haven't been much of help...  Actually, I don't believe that there is a success story with a happy ending for me...  But, at the very least you will have the documentation here... someone will know where I was standing all the time... Maybe this information will be of service to someone...  

My father was a doctor.  He was diagnosed with FAP when he was dying of liver cancer...  None of his education and the science was of service to him...  His story or our story is a fable... a trajedy and a story of survival.  But, truthfully, how important is it?

And that's where I am at this moment.  Should I continue battling within the investigation and spending money on mediocre science and medicine?  Or should I see destiny as being what is out of my hands and beyond my control and just allow to come what is coming and go on vacation...? Not a vacation in a metaphorical sense of the word but truly on vacation...

At times I want to relax from these issues and leave for places I haven't been or haven't been in a long time... like Oaxaca, Chiapas, Quitana Roo, Guatamala... Puerto Rico... the United States... We have Salvadoran "friends" here in Guadalajara who visit their country of origin 2 times per year...  Yesterday Margarita showed interest in the possibility of visiting El Salvador... We can start working towards her visa for entering the U.S..., since she finally received her revised birth certificate...  The problem is my tendency towards pragmatism here...  Issues of money saved or spent, diet, stress... and being in the position to respond to whatever medical issues arise... Travelling removes the base from where I've been working the past 3 years... working on my health issues...  If we decide to travel, that means we're putting aside aspects of the health project, such as second opinions with cardiologists and trying to connect a gastroenterologist with a cardiologist with the idea of connecting my FAP/Gardners and the digestive structure caused by the preventative surgeries with the coronary issues.  It means putting aside the heavy metals (mercury and lead) detox program or the process of cleaning my arteries of plaque which is another program...  

This is a problem.  It means a measure of giving up upon a possible medical success...  It's the interchange of being chained to an "improbability" and being freed to live free in the time I have... I don't see freedom in lack of hope and not being able to plan for a better future as I've been doing the almost 13 years I've been with Margarita.  Removing the future and planning and hope for something new and improved is the removal from my life what it has been based upon the past 13 years...  I guess it's like what work-a-holics encounter when they consider retirement...  Do you know how many people enter rapid physical and mental deterioration upon retiring?